Merry Fucking Christmas

I have to get through this without anyone knowing. I can’t tell them right now. What are you going to say, “Happy Holidays, I have cancer!” There’s so much happiness with sister’s upcoming wedding, and so much excitement about the holiday.

I know keeping this secret is pissing off my husband. I know they’ll be upset and mad I didn’t tell them sooner. I don’t really care. It’s mine to tell. I don’t even know what’s happening most of the time, how can I find a way to tell them, and have it all make sense.