I’ve discovered this show on Sundance. They get it.
I find it moving. I think mostly because I still have so many unresolved feelings about being sick, my treatment, etc. I am a person who never seems to have a problem talking, sharing, emoting, etc.
I just couldn’t. At the time, I was too busy protecting everyone, pretending I was fine and coping well. I thought if I shut down, it would give me more energy towards feeling better. My diagnosis, and everything that came after it came at what I considered an inopportune time. I feared my sister would feel I was taking attention off her and her upcoming wedding. I knew my mother didn’t deal well with it, so I tried to spare her as well. There is such a spiral of chaos around someone at the time, and it’s interesting to see it played out among family characters.