Lately I feel my brain full of so many questions.
I feel turned inside out by the little things, and the bigger, life altering questions.
I can’t handle all the questions.
I feel sad and overwhelmed. I need a break, or a vacation; a change, or perhaps some kind of medication. I don’t know. What I do know is that I can’t stay on this track too much longer. I believe something has to give.
I’ve tried to pursue some things I enjoy, to give myself an outlet that I’m severely lacking right now. I’m working on surrounding myself with people and things that make me happy, that give me something. I want to make myself a happy place. I want to learn new things or maybe discover a talent I didn’t know I had. I want to spend time with D, just us, connecting without work chat, phones, or any electronic screens.
I can’t escape or run away, so I need to at the very least, care for myself a little bit more right now.